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Goodbye

Dec 1st

If I die tonight.

I’m sorry. For every single life that I affected and therefore, hurt.

But most of all, L**** and B****, yours.

B, I shouldn’t have hit you. No one should ever hit you. Don’t let them. Your daddy will help you.

STORY CONTINUES BELOW

L, you cried until you had huge red bags under your eyes. I remember crying like that when I was a child. Wishing that someone had helped me. Feeling betrayed by everyone that was supposed to take care of me.

I should not have done it. It was not your fault.

This is not your fault.

I thought that I could do better. It turns out, I couldn’t.

I’m so sorry.

That will never be enough.

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If this doesn’t kill me, tomorrow I will buy a new bottle of anti depressants. A new bottle of tylenol. I want to die.

It’s not because of you.

Dear God, if there was a reason to live, it was always and all you. Please, please, please, choose to live. You have so much to offer the world. You are so full of light.

I’m so sorry for the pain I’ve caused you.

It’s ok to hate me.

Please go to therapy.

Please talk about it.

Please rage. Please cry. Or don’t. Whatever you need, please do or don’t do.

I love you.

I’m sorry.

Please know that you meant everything to me.

Goodbye.

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  1. Guys, please be kind and sensitive to posts of this nature. It was posted because clearly this person needs help. We provide a service, and people use it in many different ways. We’ve had posts of this nature in the past and people have been very helpful.

    I got to this post late, yes. It was sent in yesterday, but they didn’t use our instant submission form, and I didn’t get to posts yesterday (sorry). As soon as I saw it, I forwarded it to the front of the submissions line-up though and decided to post it immediately (which is usually not the case with our posts).

    I cannot do anything more than each and every one of you. Don’t say it is on me to help this person, because it isn’t. They wanted to use a service that I provided, and I allowed it, publishing it to all of you to help out as you wish. They didn’t call out to me personally; but in fact, they called out to all of you.

    The only data that is tracked by our Anonymous submission form is a person’s IP address. This does not give an exact location. It can be provided to police if need be. I will certainly not make that information public however.

    Thanks for understanding. Feel free to rebuttal, but this is my answer to everyone’s concerns in my personal part and how I’ve chosen to run this community.

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    • I believe that this should be reported to the police. I kind of think the police may take it more seriously coming from the admin.

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    • the police are currently seeking that information as I contacted them directly and gave them the link to this post. I hope that they are able to do something and that it is not too late.

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    • The IP address will be given to them, then. Thank you. ❤

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    • Shoutout Edmonton thank you.

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    • Yes, thank you. I had called the police. They said that someone out there would need to know who it is. I am glad you gave them the IP address.

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    • Actually there is a law about knowing that someone is saying they want to commit suicide and responding to it or not. But I believe just giving the police the IP address should be enough. I don’t think any of us want the IP address as you suggested. We just want to know that it’s being taken care. Just let the authorities do their job. Which could be as simple as a welfare check or as awful as a report to family of a deceased person. Even though it’s dated from yesterday, it’s your preference and this being your page makes it your responsibility, whether you like it or not. Imagine the poor family of this person finding out that you had to be persuaded to even check with the police. Your call…

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    • Pearl, police have been given the link to this post, and the person’s IP address. There’s nothing else for me to do.

      This person used an anonymous community to reach out for help. How would it be fair for me to not allow them to reach out for that help? It simply isn’t fair to them whatsoever. It’s rather discriminatory, in fact.

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    • Sorry Shoutout Edmonton, but you ARE responsible to do something. Why do the readers submit this post to the police? You should of done that immediately. You are the only one capable of giving the police the IP information, not us readers.

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    • Thank you for doing what you could with the situation. Sorry everyone else seems to think it’s their job for making you feel guilty.

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    • Thank you for giving them a pass Cassandra Beth.

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    • Terah Abel Terah Abel says:

      Leanne Davies the page auto posts and it was submitted anonymously. All the page can provide is the ip and they may have just recently seen the post

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    • The first step in rectifying a situation like this is to admit to and face the wrong-doing..which is causing you and those you love pain <3 the next step is to seek help in dealing with the pain you feel you have caused yourself and others. Hurting yourself will only cause more pain and possibly guilt to loved ones. Please seek help

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    • I really hope this person gets the help they need and all others involved!!

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    • Thank you for helping!

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  2. Cari Sware Cari Sware says:

    Shoutout Edmonton can you track the IP address or email this came from?

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  3. Should this be reported somewhere?

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  4. Someone needs help!

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  5. I have sent feedback about a possible suicide. It has an official page for this. I hope there is someway to trace the poster.

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  6. I pray someone can find this person ❤️

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  7. Leona Aquin Leona Aquin says:

    There is always a reason to live message me, i felt the same way and life turned around for the best pls contact someone…..phone this number best help ever 780-342-7777 has done wonders for many

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  8. this sounds like it might be a suicide letter , we need to find this person

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  9. Randi Doucet Randi Doucet says:

    It’s too late already, they dated it December 1… Whoever you are I hope you decided to reach out for help, you are worth it!!

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  10. Jody Mitoma is there anyway of tracking

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  11. Call 1-833-456-4566, there is always someone to talk to there.

    Or walk into an ER.

    There are people that want to help you, and people that love you that want to help.

    If you have not gone through with it and are reading this you can also pm me. I am always here to listen, and that goes for anyone reading this. If you need to talk to someone, if you are in crisis, drop me a line anytime. I am here to listen.

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  12. Kelli Ruetch Kelli Ruetch says:

    Please find this person and help.. I pray to god its not to late

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  13. what a sad way way to get people to read this page jody am totally dissapointed

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  14. How can Shoutout Edmonton post this and not do anything about it. Kinda sick and twisted!

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  15. I understand the need to say something, but there are places for this and traumatizing people with fear is wrong, especially when it is done in debilitating anonymity.

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  16. Don’t do it Dennis Robins. You have nothing to live for.

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  17. Come on Shoutout Edmonton! Let us know if you have taken any steps to help this person. We don’t need names. We just need to know that you have taken steps…

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  18. Steven Owen Steven Owen says:

    It was dated yesterday.. if OP was serious, it’s probably already done. If OP sees this, please seek help.. you sound like you might be a mom, and god dammit your kids need their fucking mom. Call the alberta health services mental help line at 1-877-303-2642. There is no shame in asking for help!
    (Side note. If this is not addressed by SOE, I will be unfollowing the page. I am NOT here to read people’s fucking suicide notes.)

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  19. Leslie Brady Leslie Brady says:

    Don’t do this to ur people! What ever u have done can be undone. It can’t be dealt with if ur not here to help deal with it! I’m sure ur loved. If you’ve got the guts to take ur life, then you’ve got the guts to live!

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  20. I feel at a loss. Facebook has no contact number. I tried contacting them but I got a tech who didn’t read my message, as he just asked what model device I had. Police can only help if someone out there recognizes this cry for help.

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  21. I really hope they were successful…

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  22. Just remember that Jesus Love’s You, Yes You! No matter of your sin, there are none perfect but one, and look what they did to Him. Nailed to a Cross. My prayer for you is that you receive the help you need.

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  23. Amber Greve Amber Greve says:

    Has anyone reported to EPS yet? They might be able to trace it?

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  24. Brandy Wells Brandy Wells says:

    To the person whos hearts breaking be strong you don’t need any of those ppl ❤❤❤

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  25. Lisa Hoff Lisa Hoff says:

    Please call 780-342-7777. 24 hr mental health help line.

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  26. Lisa Hoff Lisa Hoff says:

    Jody Mitoma…can this be traced somehow? This person needs help.

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  27. Please seek help, people need and love you and you love them, it’s clear in your post. Don’t let something temporary make you do something permanent. It doesn’t take the pain away, it just transfers the pain to those you left behind.
    There are resources out there. I hope you reach out to loved ones or these. Suicide isn’t a solution for anything.

    Urgent Care 24/7 780-342-7777

    Distress line 24/7 (can mobilize the mobile response team) 780-482-4357

    City of Edmonton 211

    Mental Health Helpline 24/7 1-877-303-2642

    Crisis Support Center 24/7 1-800-232-7288

    If you are in immediate danger call 911 or go to an ER

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  28. I hope you’re okay and if you’re okay, please message me. I was there! Lots! Luckily the last attempt I was found and I was saved, had a lot of alone time in the hospital to think and a couple months later I was given a gift of life, my daughter and now I have a son.

    Life is worth living, you might not see that now but you will. I’m here if you need someone to talk to. ❤️

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  29. Diane Lee Diane Lee says:

    This is really sad has to be a way to get her help

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  30. If it’s anonymous how can they find the OP?

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  31. Breath. Cry. Breath. Call someone. Anyone. Breath. Cry. Talk

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  32. OP, I have been where you are! I haven’t read all the comments but please please please know you are special and important to the people around you.

    I was in a really bad place until I found the right medication. Depression is nothing to be ashamed of… It’s a way of life. By that I mean you struggle every single day, you don’t always have control over your actions, you are not always present. Please talk to your doctor, there is such a stigma around mental health but there dosent have to be!

    Trust me I’ve failed, hurt people around me, gotten stuck in my own head, but there is a light on the other side.

    I went through so many different types of meds before finding one that helps.

    Please feel free to send me a message, I will always respond to people that need help!

    You are important, honestly people love you! Reach out to me, to a loved one, to anyone please.

    Your important

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  33. I pray you find help in healing. God be with you if you need a friend I am here to talk

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  34. Steven Owen Steven Owen says:

    Jody, the fact that you didn’t reach out to the authorities (with their ip address) prior to negative feedback from your revenue source says alot. Hopefully you take your personal responsibility in matters like this more seriously going forward.

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    • I agree. And posted in reply to another poster. If it was my loved one that wrote this and I discovered instead of help being called the post was read, approved and posted, I would be looking at legal recourse. Especially if my loved succeeded in ending their life. I have never had a problem with this page or Jody before, but this was morally repugnant.

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    • Personally I would get ahold of the police right away. With saying that, It wouldn’t be Jody’s fault if the person killed himself. Other people are not responsible for someone else, unless its children or family. People reach out for help and or attention all the time. Saying you would look in to legal recourse is bit overboard, would you go after every single person, the person ever talked too about it, what if they had talked to you about it years before. It’s never someone else’s fault, it’s the persons selfish way out. There is plenty of resources out there to help them

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    • Stated above that he sent the authorities the post and IP address of the poster. Read before you judge.

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  35. Sending the OP lots of positive and healing vibes. We all have a path…and sometimes mistakes are made but I guarantee you that people care♡ reach out.. know that in time things will be okay again

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  36. Tim Hainer Tim Hainer says:

    Dont do it. Seek help. There is lots of support that you can access. Brighter days lie ahead!!

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  37. Brad Daniels Brad Daniels says:

    The police don’t know what to do with situations like this. They take people to the hospital and then once there that don’t offer much help either. You have to sit in a crowded room while you go through whatever it may be that you are going through and that’s a scary thing. They need to reevaluate mental health services because it’s sad when people that need help are turned away or given a run around. I hope the best for this person and hope they can seek and also get the help they truly need

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  38. Ruth Chalk Ruth Chalk says:

    Please O.P there are services out there to get help. I’m sure you feel awful for something that happened. But you don’t have to commit suicide. If you have to, call 911 or go to an emergency room. Talk to someone. Don’t kill yourself. Death is not the solution.

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  39. This really saddens me. I drink to much, I work to much, I’m not present enough, sometimes I just want to die. Hold on and try to do better, that is the only way you can set the example for your child. We all suffer setbacks, reaching out for help is the best step.

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  40. Fucking boycott this page that is so wrong to even let it be posted. Clearly the person needs help and posting here clearly won’t fucking help Jody

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  41. Sheila Gough Sheila Gough says:

    This is just wrong in so many ways

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  42. Janna Dee Janna Dee says:

    Please message me if you need to talk. I am here to listen without judgement.

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  43. Rae Wright Rae Wright says:

    Admin should be calling the cops to do a welfare check on this person. Make sure they aware okay

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  44. Debbie Ryder Debbie Ryder says:

    Admin needs to call the cops

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  45. Edmonton Police Service needs to see this.
    I realize that steps have already been taken by providing the IP address to the police (which should have been done immediately by this page’s admin – despite what you think, it’s a responsibility of yours to report it).

    This page is RARELY used for positivity or “shout outs” and is almost always someone complaining, asking for handouts and now this…change the name of the page to “Anonymous Shit in Edmonton”.

    Hate on me if you want but it is what it is.

    Regarding the actual post, I do hope the OP did reach out and seek help instead of acting on this. As a former EMS dispatcher, I can’t tell you how many suicidal calls we got around the holidays.
    Please don’t take your life, there is always some way to get back on track and plenty of resources to help you.

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  46. I truly hope this person is ok.

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  47. Im glad o.p has reached out to someone in this case it was thise group. Please lets hope this person gets the help they need

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  48. Lois White Lois White says:

    Sorry Admin. I believe you have an obligation to report suicide threats.
    Report suicidal content

    IMPORTANT: If you’ve encountered a direct threat of suicide on Facebook, please contact law enforcement or a suicide hotline immediately. If the person you’re worried about is a member of the US military community, make sure you mention this so they can provide this person with custom support.

    Full name of the person who posted the content
    As it appears on Facebook

    Link (URL) to this person’s Profile

    Please provide a link to the content you’re trying to report so we can investigate. To get a link to the exact content you want to report:Find the content (ex: photo, video, comment) you want to reportIf this content is on someone’s Timeline, click on the date/time it was posted (ex: 27 minutes, May 30 at 7:30pm)Copy the URL from your browser’s address bar:

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  49. I truly hope this person is ok. So sad.

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  50. yeeeeeah right. cry for attention.

    why even keep this post up?

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  51. A very tragic situation…hopefully the op got help…Shoutout Edmonton is not to blame though. They can’t be expected to deal with situations like this anymore than the rest of us

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  52. Hang in there. Just one more day. One day at a time. You are loved, cared for and will be missed. Hang on.just one more day..

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  53. Ana Hita Ana Hita says:

    OP you’re never alone. I hope you’re fine
    Please message me ❤️

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  54. I hope you’re alive and still here. Pm me I’d like to know what happened and what can I do to help

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  55. Marie says:

    Poor Jody. I don’t think you deserved being raked over for this. You’ve done your due diligence. You’re not God.

    I know/knew two suicides in the past 5 years, an acquaintance and a relative.
    I’ve also read up on suicide. To me, from what I’ve read … this public post from the OP is an unusual m.o. — though one never knows (?)
    If it was a serious cry to notice, then hopefully something changed and the OP is alright.
    If this post was some sort of a stunt, I hope the EPS can deal with it.

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  56. Can i have all your stuff please?

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  57. Jody, you should delete this now that it has been reported. Seriously..

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    • Kiara says:

      The longer it stays up, the more people that come to see it, the more money he makes. I’m so disappointed it’s still up. It’s become sensationalistic.

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  58. This is one of those that needs to be filed under the Do fucking something, trace the IP Holy fucking shit do something!!! areas

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  59. Haley Jensen Haley Jensen says:

    I feel like shoutout Edmonton should probably be calling help for these people …

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    • Oh Troy Gilbertson, you don’t even know what happened, so shut your ignorant pie hole. Saying the person doesn’t deserve to live because they admitted to hitting their child. I’ve been so stressed out by my eldest child who has ADHD that I’ve hit him on 2 occasions. I’m not proud of it and it made me feel so awful. But in those moments, after hours of dealing with an ADHD child in full out melt down/temper tantrum (level 1000), having to physically restrain him, to keep him from smashing things or attacking me, it was finally just a reaction. So what, I deserve to die because of that? Pfffft. Pretty harsh buddy. You shouldn’t be so quick to jump to conclusions.

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    • absolutely, this is not something that should be ignored.

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    • Why? Piece of shit hurts kids. Doesn’t deserve to live and knows it.

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    • Wow. Justice needs to be served but we don’t have the death penalty here in case you forgot.

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    • I guess opinions are like assholes.. We all have one.

      Spanking a child and things that would classify as normal discipline are fine. The note implies worse abuse than that. So yes capital punishment is what is deserved.

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  60. Could the police somehow trace it perhaps?

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  61. Admin????
    This is a cry for help!!!!

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  62. Marlena Liz Marlena Liz says:

    I don’t think it’s traceable. It’s a call for help for sure and aimed at certain people seeing. Hopefully those people see it and know who this is and get the police to do a welfare check asap.

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  63. Not really sure why you even posted this ShoutOut! Clearly this person is hurting and something needs to be done to help

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    • Jaime Sharon Jaime Sharon says:

      You can now post without having admin approve it

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    • Jaime Sharon oh really..I didn’t know that

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    • And I have to say, if I found out my loved one posted something like that and the site owner not only read it but approved it for publication rather than seeking help, I would be considering legal recourse.

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    • Brandy Conlin agreed!

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    • Again Brandy. IP address does NOT give an exact location. I literally can not do anything more than any of you.

      And yes. I approved this post, and I do NOT feel bad for doing so! This person wants help. They used a service to reach out to people anonymously. Why on earth wouldn’t Iallow them to do that?! That’s not okay in my books.

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    • Shoutout Edmonton I hope they got help. Sounds like they killed themselves by the sounds of the post and how long it took to be be posted. I really hope they lived. Sounded very dire and shitty.

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    • I thought it was done that way. But no, Jody approved it and posted It, police were only notified because of readers not jody, though he provided the ip because the pOlive wanted it after readers reported this. I am actually really disappointed this time around. This was not something to post, it should have been reported immediately. If the poster had opted to go with the instant post I could understand, but Jody posted in this thread he read It, and then approved it for posting. Yes the person chose this as their outlet but the right thing would have been to report it right away not put it out there for the world and then say “oh if the police want the ip I’ll give it”.

      I truly hope the poster gets the help they need. But this is the first time I have been really disappointed in the decision making on this page.

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  64. I have reported this post to Facebook.

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  65. Someone’s looking for attention

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    • Yes. Attention! Attention to get help! Don’t be an ass, thinking this is just for someone to draw the wrong kind of attention. It’s a cry for help, at best. Hopefully it’s not too late. If you have never been desperate enough to ask for help, then you should stand back and let those that know what they’re doing, do it!

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  66. Joan Warren Joan Warren says:

    Cry for help people that commit suicide usually just do it . Either way sad that people think its only way out . Hope they have recieved help.

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  67. Justin Basso Justin Basso says:

    Don’t let the door hit you on your way out.

    Now before I get ambushed by all you keyboard warriors. If the person was gonna do it, they would do it. They wouldn’t waste time writing this. If anything they would have written it out on paper to leave behind.

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    • Steven Owen Steven Owen says:

      Go fuck yourself Justin Basso, you fucking edgy piece of shit.

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    • It does mean you have to be an ass.

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    • Leona Aquin Leona Aquin says:

      NO HEART IN THIS PERSON….

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    • Way to be a straight up dick.

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    • You have no idea what he or she had in mind. Some don’t write these days, with technology at hand. Some call the distress line. This way, they have expressed themselves in a way that is unlikely to be traced.

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    • Justin Basso Justin Basso says:

      Hilary Newman-shalagan I’m gonna go on a limb and say OP is a guy who hit his gf/ex gf from how he wrote it. All he does is feel remorse. Probably was charged and is now wanting pity to feel good. That’s where my thought is when he mentioned he didn’t mean to hit b*****

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    • Heartless bastard, i hope every single person kicks you when your down, but there wont be because most of us have humanity, grow a pair. I am ashamed that no one taught you “if you dont have something nice to say, dont say it at all”.

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    • Justin Basso Justin Basso says:

      Morgan Paige Wiens I didn’t have anyone there when I was bullied from grade 2 til grade 11. Then I grew a pair. I’ve also lost several friends due to suicide and guess what. They didn’t cry out. They just did it. They gave no hints. Nothing. My own attempt in grade 12 only failed because my gf found my note in my locker at school and rushed over after I took some pills. If she didn’t go through my locker for a pen I wouldn’t be here. So come on. Tell me how heartless I am.

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    • Erin Shaw Erin Shaw says:

      That is such a misconception that people who talk about it don’t do it. Please don’t believe this.

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    • Justin Basso Justin Basso says:

      It’s not a misconception. If they were gonna do it, they would. I’ll give way that a smallllll percentage looks to it but in this text. I see it as just wanting attention and wanting people to feel sorry for someone hitting another person who I’m guessing is a girl

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    • Erin Shaw Erin Shaw says:

      Mr. Basso, I’m very sorry you went through that. You are not heartless but rather it seems that your experience did nothing to broaden your understanding of human beings. Not everyone will do it like you, nor will everyone have the lack of support you did.

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    • Justin Basso Justin Basso says:

      Erin Shaw, I have sympathy for those who reach out personally instead of relying on a FB page. Call the suicide hotline. It’s more personal with a 1 on 1. Or go see a therapist. It’s a tax write off so you pay next to nothing come tax season.

      What makes me laugh is the person hit someone. And they all defending and feeling bad for the OP because now they are discussing suicide. Good to see the many of you condone violence.

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    • Glad to know you’re such an expert Justin Basso. You’re NOT. My best friend’s son left his suicide note on Facebook and he was sadly successful in losing his life

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    • Erin Shaw Erin Shaw says:

      Justin Basso not at all sir, I just don’t want them to die- then we can address the violence. That’s a hefty assumption to go from people not mentioning it to them condoning it. The suicidal feelings are the immediate crisis, the violence is the problem to be fixed after.

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    • Erin Shaw Erin Shaw says:

      Justin Basso please sir, I was a suicide hotline worker for nearly a decade and I know many people who are dead who talked my ear off. No correlation I’m afraid- just talking gives one more chance to help. There are no real ways to predict-all in all it can be anyone.

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    • Justin Basso Justin Basso says:

      Erin Shaw that’s true. But from my many experiences myself, there was no hint they were even suicidal.

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    • Chris Arcand Chris Arcand says:

      You really did it this time basso

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    • Justin Basso Justin Basso says:

      Chris Arcand meh. I’ve had more controversial stuff posted before.

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    • Justin Basso Justin Basso says:

      Chris Arcand meh. I’ve had more controversial stuff posted before.

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    • I can see where your coming from Justin and its sad you had to go through so much shit. I hope you are in a better place now.

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    • Justin Basso Justin Basso says:

      Sorry you people can’t handle what would be the truth. It’s a cry for attention. If they were gonna do it, they would do it without telling people.

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